My story is the one where the girl is looking for a sign or miracle everywhere, and endlessly finding herself disappointed. Ever since I heard the story of the little children in Lourdes to whom the Virgin Mary appeared, I have wanted that. I have expected that. I have been waiting for that. I have been perpetually looking to be rescued by Mary, by Jesus, by a man, or for heaven’s sake, God, already! I have been perpetually waiting for signs to show me what to do, to give me the right answer, to tell me everything is going to be okay.
I have also been perpetually afraid that I would have to endure horrible suffering (since it seemed that’s what the catholic saints were doing in the stories I was reading as a child), if I wanted to go to heaven, be blessed, or be loved. I have been perpetually afraid of doing things wrong, not being good enough, being punished, alone and unloved.
Well… after 45 years, I can wholeheartedly share that none of THAT has panned into anything lasting, fulfilling, helpful, comforting, happy, or healthy!
I started my self-help journey 25 years ago as a young, single-mother fighting exhaustion, poverty, and comprising her dreams, and what I’ve learned is that self-help means SELF-help. I must help MY SELF.
I AM WHO I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR. I AM THE SIGN. I AM THE ANSWER. I AM MY RESCUER.
No, I didn’t really just get that message now. I got that message many times before — many, many times before — but it didn’t really sink in until recently.
So after 25 years of working on myself, 18 years of holding onto a business name that I was never ready to promote, and 14 years of working with adults with special needs who taught me that we are all our own brand of special needs in need and worthy of our very own special care and attention, I have finally decided to create a space for sharing my message on life and love and happiness and healing. It’s what my business has been waiting for: ME.
My message is about committing to your self – fully and primarily – learning what care and attention you need to feel whole, alive, aligned and inspired.
It’s about being conscious of what you are doing and why you are doing it – so you can choose to create the outcomes you desire and you can choose to mend/heal/let go of the things that are no longer serving you or life.
It’s about keeping on keeping on even when you can’t see the light.
It’s about turning within to find your own source of inner wisdom and guidance, and then, here’s the kicker, trusting it.
It’s about answering your call to grow, expand, experiment, explore and make and follow your own path in the world.
It’s about the stuff that HAS worked for me, the stuff that HAS brought me help, the stuff that HAS brought me peace, comfort, fulfillment, well-being, vitality and joy.
I hope it will help you or someone else keep on keeping on, make the commitment to put your self first, or wake up and choose to create a life that honors who you are and brings you the peace, fulfillment and fun that is waiting for you.
Totally Living 